Absence

Where is he

When the pain that he’s caused is eating away at your soul

Where is he

When you cry yourself to sleep at night

Where is he

When you feel like you’re not good enough,

or good enough for sex but not the rest

Where is he

When he promised you he’d be here, that you’d do that thing together, but you know you never will, You know he only makes empty promises to you, but real ones to the rest.

Yet you take his word and hold on to it because that’s all you’ll ever have.

Empty words and a broken heart

Where is he

When he told you to trust him, only to take that trust and break it

Where is he

He said he’d be here

But he never comes

Maybe when he’s

On his way home, from a night out with his friends and the thought of you comes not from his heart or his mind but from what lies between his legs.

Where is he

When you’ve disappeared into your deep depression

When you’re pushed to the edge, afraid of heights but not scared to jump

Where is he

When you try to change yourself so maybe you’ll be wanted

Where is he

When you compare yourself to those other girls

Not skinny enough

Not pretty enough

Not smart enough

Not rich enough

Not happy enough

Where is he

When he’s taken your happiness

When he’s taken your joy

When he’s broken you down and turned you into his little toy

Where is he

When you cry,

When you die a little more inside as another day goes by with

No call, not even a text

Where is he

When the only memories you have of him are sad ones

But memories all the same you hold on to them

Where is he

When the sun doesn’t shine for you anymore

Because he’s taken it away

To keep you hidden in the darkness

Is he ashamed?

Because you’re not like them and you’re not like him

But

Can you blame him?

Where is he

When you’re being poisoned from the inside from the seeds that he planted

When u lay awake at night disheartened

Where is he?

He’s run off with your confidence and left you in the darkness

When he’s put you in a box and forgotten

Where is he

Once he’s broken all his promises

He turns away from what he started

Where is he

When your heart has gone black

And blue, it’s so bruised

So where is he?

Somewhere living life when hes taken all of yours.